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14 January 2011 @ 03:40 pm
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Hello everyone, I'm new here. So here's my little bio: 

Name: Whit
Age: 22
ED Type/History: Went from COE during childhood, to bulimia for a few years, recovered and gained a ton of weight, then became "bulimarexic"
Height: 5' 7"
Current Weight: 160 lbs
Current BMI: 25
Highest Weight: 220
Lowest Weight: 140
Goal Weight(s): 110
Interests: I'm addicted to trashy reality shows. I don't really have any friends or hobbies. Most of my time is consumed by work and school. I'm in my 3rd year of college, and I'm going to be a doctor.
 
 
Current Mood: coldcold
 
 
07 January 2011 @ 11:18 am
Loved this post because it had tips on how to control hunger by squeezing your knees.. did anyone else try this it works..  http://www.pro-thinspo.com/anatips.html
 
 
 
30 December 2010 @ 12:36 am
Wow...... i am soooo pathethic. I read some of my entries from a while back.. and im like.... "i stiiill havent lost all this weight?" all this garbage? all this life ruining fat..? REALLY???? am i fucking serious?

I knew I needed livejournal. I KNEW i needed you guys for me to do this. I quit for a while.. I havent been on for 6 months... i ditched. I got scared, and just ditched.

I lost some weight the kind of healthy way.. but guess what.. my ED came right back in and now im still at a high weight. Ew its grose.

I hate it.

I want my skinny face back.. my skinny legs.. my skinny gorgeous shoulders... my flat tummy... I want it. More than anything.

I have the biggest inspiration right now.. a boy.... a boy I met that lives on the other coast of me.. ahaha but.... i feel like I just like him SO much. and I want to be perfect for him... perfect. I want him to look at me and be absolutely amazed. He webcams for me... and he is SOOO ADORABLE!!! omgggg... omg SOOOOO CUTE!!!! im in loooove lol ;) but.... i STILL havent webcammed for him...... i used SO many excuses... but i cant just say IM FAT. im trying to lose weight.. ummm just wait a few weeks. I cannot say that.

Im tired of using excuses, and not letting him see me, only pictures. I WANT TO LOOK BEAUTIFUL ALL THE TIME. for him.... for us. <3

I'm more inspired than others.. and i reallyyy want to do it with you girls :) i missed you so much...

I'm fasting until I lose 20 pounds. My goal is to be 20 pounds lighter before I can let him see me.... that will only take about 10 days fasting if i do this right :)

:D

Whos with meee??? I will be updating every single day for you girls :) I'l weigh in tomorrow, and tell you how everything is going. ahhh IM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!! :DD

Imma do this.. 20 pounds YOU WILL BE GONE!!!!!
 
 
 
 
04 October 2010 @ 02:18 pm
 I'm going to do the 28 day challenge as outlined in this community, recommended to me by one of you guys.
28 days will take me to the end of the month, and Halloween (my new year) so the timing seems good.
This is also near the beginning on my menstrual cycle which seems like a good time to start day 1.
This weekend was particularly fat and bloaty. I look awful and am brimming out of my bra etc. due to hormones and too much ice cream.
For balance I will say that my hair looks quite nice today.

This plan allows amnesty days if you feel ill, but other than that doesn't have cheat days. Maybe that kind of discipline would kick me into gear?

I'll see.
 
 
 
01 October 2010 @ 12:57 pm
maybe this is a stupid question, but do you ladies gain weight when your period comes around...? i was 136 yesterday, and i've been doing good, but now i'm 140.5 and i can't think of any other reason. i read online that your body tends to retain more water during this time, but it didn't tell me if it'd go away?

i'm not SUPER concerned i guess but i'm wondering if this is REAL weight, (like if i'm storing fat) or if it's just water weight

mostly i want it to go away, this is so discouraging
any feedback would be helpful <3
x-posted all over the place
 
 
 
23 September 2010 @ 09:24 pm

hey everyone, so im the newbie =) just joined tonight

Name: Katie
Age: 18
ED Type/History: ENOS on and off for about 3 years
Height: 5’3
Current Weight: 140
Current BMI (If you don't know this, Google it)
Highest Weight: 147
Lowest Weight: 118
Goal Weight(s):

STGW: 120

LTGW: 85
Tell us a little bit about yourself... interests, hobbies, whatev.: I just started college and that’s been really exciting. It’s also been a really good chance to start in on a legitimate diet plan. Since now I don’t have my parents looking over me. I really love fashion and music and I’ve been thinking about getting into photography as well. =)
Favorite Thinspiration: unfortunately all my photos got deleted recently, so im on the hunt for some good ones =)

 
 
13 September 2010 @ 03:27 pm
 Ok i have a question..

Last week i put on my 00 jeans and they fit fine.
Yesterday i tried them on and they fit everywhere, except for around my belly.

My "Period" should technically be here in a week.

My belly hasn't gotten any bigger, in the sense that i haven't ate more, nor stopped working out.

My Stomach has just been like swollen, it's weird.

Do you think this is just because of my Period? Have any of you experienced this?
 
 
 
09 September 2010 @ 04:00 pm
So i have a question..

I just want to see if either i am or have officially lost my mind, or if there are any of you who feel the way i do.


Lately, when i look or take pictures of myself, it looks like i've gotten at least 3 times bigger.
Like when i see myself, i look about the size i used to when i was a healthy size 5.

So here's the part i am wondering.

Do any of you feel this way i do?

As well all my Xsmall and XXsmall clothing still fit and are even still baggy.

So if those wouldn't fit or be too tight, that would really mean i have gotten bigger correct?

I am not stupid, i just want to make sure that i am not losing my mind.

Could any of you give me your advice or thoughts on this?
 
 
04 September 2010 @ 06:18 pm
 
Wow, it's been a really long time since that last time i have been on here, let alone posted something.

I'd like to see that i am doing better with my battle against my eating disorder, but sadly, i have to admit that it has gotten worse, worse then before.

I just don't get it.

Everytime i look at myself, whether it be in the mirror or a photo, i look at least 3 times bigger then i did. Yet my clothes will fill looser. How does that work? Why can't i see what everyone else does? 

Again i have wondered and asked these questions to myself, many many times. I really am not sure what to do any more. But get some kind of mental and physical health.

Simply, this new thing that i look way bigger, is dangerous to myself. It's putting me in overdrive with not eating and thinking of more drastic measures. 

My family & friends have stated i have gotten thinner, yet why do i see opposite?


Apart from that issue.

I am learning to be happier, letting things that have hurt me in my past, finally heal and find new outlets. I have had a beautiful summer, not warm, but full of happy adventures and memories. I have been fulfilling my love for Hiking & Photography, which has made me very happy. As well as giving me new insight as to a new path in my life i'd like to start. 

I would love to hear from some of you that i used to talk to on here, you were all so caring and kind to me, it really helped me alot to have people to talk to. 

I will post a newer picture as well of myself, also, if any of you have facebook, feel free to send me a message and i'll add you. I am new to facebook, so still learning how to use it.